On Focus

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Something a little different tonight. Steve Jobs, 1997:

You look at the farm that’s been created with all these different animals going in different directions, and it doesn’t add up. The total is less than the sum of its parts. So we had to decide what are the fundamental directions we’re going in? …

When you think about focusing, focusing is about saying yes. No. Focusing is about saying no. Focusing is about saying no. No, no, no, no. And when you say no, you piss off people. …

Focusing is about saying no. And the result of that focus is going to be some really great products where the total is much greater than the sum of the parts.

I’m having a lot of trouble focusing these days. I started talking about it in On Decadence, and then in more detail in On Revelations, but I’m basically all over the map in WoW.

Tonight I didn’t even really want to log in, but my son wanted to watch me play a little bit before bed. So I went over to my druid and healed Eye of the Storm. It was fun, I enjoy playing Cynli a lot now. Then I switched over to my baby mage, who now has dual AGM trinkets, and proceeded to dominate 2 more BGs. Arcane is so OP if you know what you’re doing it’s not even funny. Then over to my gnome clone, becuase she needs some leveling and I’ve been really bad about leveling her. Worked on her for a bit, then got bored and looked for another character. Maybe the Shammy!

Then I’m like, holy crap, 2 hours have passed, the boy’s been asleep for an hour, and what am I doing?

I closed up my laptop, did some chores, then surfed the web for a bit.

Found elephant poo in a box. That made me laugh. Found another movie about traditional Japanese sword-making. That made me thoughtful. Found the above video clip. Made me even more quiet than I was before.

Thought a lot about saying Yes and No to things. In game, out of game, Of getting pulled in a lot of different directions and not getting anywhere. Of working two jobs, but not building something successful.

There was another post on Presentation Zen – an old favorite site of mine, by the way – where Garr talks about Jobs’s presenation on marketing yourself and your core values. From his post:

(M)arketing is not about touting features and speeds and megabytes or comparing yourself to the other guys, it’s about identifying your own story, your own core, and being very, very clear about what you are all about and what you stand for…and then being able to communicate that clearly, simply, and consistently.

Things were simpler back when I had character focus. Warcraft was an effective escape back then – I was a PvP Warlock. You want warlock, you want PvP, I’m your blogger and teacher.

And then I lost it. I lost focus in my job – two jobs will do that to you – but I lost focus in WoW, too.

Because I’ve lost focus in other parts of my life, the lack of focus in Warcraft is perhaps understandable.¬†But it doesn’t make finding that focus any easier.

I wonder which characters I need to say NO to in order to find it.

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4 responses to “On Focus

  1. Redbeard

    I’m not going to tell you what to do, no matter the temptation. (Having a teenager in the house helps with this, ironically enough.) However, maybe something as simple as writing down everything you do online will help you to take that step back and see the bigger picture. I’ve discovered that my mind “edits” what I’ve been up to unless I force it to examine everything I’ve been doing.

  2. Liz

    Cyn… I have been here. So caught up in all the alts that it’s overwhelming and then NOTHING sounds fun. I dealt with this feeling directly only one time before — I simply deleted characters. High level ones. Low level ones. Ones that had amazing achievements. Deleted. Until I was down to my shaman and two more. It did help, but only for a little while. I returned to my altoholic ways (and that’s how I’m working on my 5th 85 right now), but I look at the game differently now. I don’t feel the pressure that I *have* to level one single character from 1 to 85 and not play any others until that’s done. So now, I’m not deleting characters; I’m just letting them sit on the login screen. I’ll come to them eventually and they’ll be patient with me.You seem like a guy who enjoys having a little bit of different things going on — maybe what you should do is just play a select handful of characters for awhile (or until you realize you don’t want to play the /other/ characters and feel confident in deleting them). You could also take a break for a day (or so) like you did a few months ago. That might give you time to think about who you want to play — or time to think about other things to help clear your head/mood. Good luck!

  3. Cynwise of Stormwind

    @redbeard: Surprisingly, I’m starting to see how having a teenager teaches you to be quiet and let them make their own choices. My son is six and at the independent at all costs stage, and I see the beginnings of having to let go. Not yet! Not entirely. But soon. Taking a step back sounds good. @Liz: I didn’t know you’d purged toons like that. It’s good to know that I’m not alone in this feeling! I don’t know what the answer is, obviously, but you and Redbeard have given me things to think about. I probably will take a bit of a break here. I thin I need it. Thanks for the comments. :)

  4. Ttrinty

    It seems we have the opposite problem. In wrath i did either 10 or 25, sometimes BOTH on a single healer, and I have 4. So I was raiding in guild and pugging and running alt runs all the time. It was great fun. Along comes Cata. Bah. Really the only class that I love playing at the moment is my priest. All others, although 85, sit dormant in blues, some epics. Unplayed. Waiting silently for an alchemy transmute order. I wonder if I will find the joy in playing other classes again…